I am so thankful that God never leaves me where I may be at a particular moment in time. My Granny always said that when she stopped learning then she would be in Heaven ---
and thankfully I am a Granny who keeps learning as well.
So, here's where I've been ...
I've mentioned in many posts that we have 3 generations in our house -- with Dan & me as the oldest generation. Two years ago our son-in-law was wounded in action in Afghanistan -- this was just 11 days after his son (our grandson) was born and our granddaughter was 3 1/2 at the time. So for the past year and a half since he's been home from Walter Reed National Military Medical Center, our household has been very busy. Our grandson Tag is an energetic toddler and his sister Lucy is a creative preschooler who starts Kindergarten this fall. Between rehabs, doctor's appointments, evaluations, preschool activities, toddler development, church activities ... well, our daughter has her hands full.
So Dan and I try to help out as best we can.
One thing about parents who then become grandparents ...
we don't always --- I should back up here ... some parents/grandparents may "get it" right ...
so let me use the "first person" here ... I don't always "get it" right.
Let me explain a little more ... there's a difference between my husband and me. Dan has always been a "fixer" and a "balancer". If there's a problem, he wants to come to a solution to fix whatever the situation may be. And he has always been good at balancing work-life and home-life ... getting household things accomplished, having fun with kids/grandkids,
finding time for his hobbies such as playing music ... he's a "balancer".
Me on the other hand ... well, Granny really isn't a "fixer"--- I'm more of a "taper" ...
you know, put a little scotch tape on the situation for a temporary fix until it comes apart again. Then I'll deal with it at that point in time. And I definitely do not balance ... I'm more of a juggler --- toss everything that's going on up in the air and pray I don't drop any of the balls. I try to take things upon myself ... not for the "control" but rather to take something off the plate of my "house-mates". If truth be known, I honestly do not enjoy being "in control" ... let someone else take the lead and I will follow
(well, after I finish everything that I BELIEVE needs done around the house first).
But no matter what our different traits may be, I think I can speak for at least MOST parents when I say this ---
it's not a control issue we have with our kids' lives.
I know that my daughter and son-in-law need to walk the path that God has directed for just them. My desire (especially over these past 2 years) has been more to "shield" them ... although my daughter is grown, married and has children, she's still my daughter.
I would rather walk through the raging waters than have her even close enough to feel it's strength ...
And this is where God delivered me from over the past several days ...
He is my kids shield.
All of these situations and challenges that they have and are going through --
He is with them.
He is carrying them.
He is molding them and shaping them into the people He needs them to be.
He has His plans for them as well as for Lucy and Tag.
And He has His plans for Dan and myself. I've done a lot of listening to Him over the past several weeks. Sometimes outside influences can detract from what we need to hear straight from the Master. So, as I was listening, the God of the universe gave me one word ...
I can visualize this one word
I can repeat this one word when I feel overwhelm
I can rest in this one word
And truth is, I've done all the above just within the past several days.
My one word ...
When I visualize this word ...
I can physically feel my breathing getting calmer and smoother
I can feel my blood pressure leveling
I can feel His peace sauntering through me
Yes, I know that I will have to keep reminding myself of this word daily --
and moment by moment. But you see, this is where
Grace meets imperfection
Comfort overtakes anxiety
Rest reacquaints with assurance
when the overwhelm begins to overtake ...
when anxiety sets up camp within me ...
when uncertainty turns into fear ...
... allows God to do what only He can do
... allows me to rest and step out of His way
... allows peace to overflow with comfort and security
I pray for your week and days ahead, my dear friends ...
that you will rest in the security and comfort of His grace ...
that you will always be teachable and learn from the Master Himself ...
and that you simply